My Poor Little Blog . . .

You have been severely neglected my poor little blog. But there was a good reason, I swear. Don’t look at me like that. It’s not that I love novel writing better than you, it’s just . . . well, I do love novel writing more, but- No, wait, don’t cry. I’m sorry. We can still be friends!

So I’m not officially breaking up with my blog, but I’ll probably use it like a drunk dial on a lonely night. I enjoyed it while it lasted, but when it got to be a chore, well, I don’t do chores. Just ask my poor neglected house. But here’s a quick update on life.

I have finished my YA Science Fiction retelling of The Last of the Mohicans to the point it is ready for betas. It’s been sent off to a few, though I’m still looking. The title, in case I haven’t mentioned it on the blog yet, is They Chose the Stars. I love it! I mean I really love it! So much so I’ll be heartbroken if I have to change it if I ever get it published. (Not that heartbroken though. Published is still published!)

I’m pretty happy with how it turned out, but I felt the same way about previous novels and betas have a way of bursting that euphoric bubble. Which is a good thing. I can’t wait to get those comments back and make it better than it was. Unless of course they tell me it is utter rubbish, my writing is pretentious, the characters useless, and I should just start all over. Oh, crap, now I’m getting nervous.

Though to be honest, I’d rather have someone tell me all that, rather than say it was good, but not really mean it. So slash away betas! Make that MS bleed! I’ll just be hiding here in the corner hugging me knees to my chest.

And I’m spent . . .

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It’s finished! My novel is officially done. All right, I understand a novel is never finished until it’s bound in hardcover and shipped to B&N (or wherever you buy books), but as far as I’m concerned this is finite.

Actually, I’m being a bit facetious. There are two parts I’m considering adding, but not only have I not thought them through enough, the book stands fine without them. And I’m already reconsidering how many times my characters have pounding hearts and sweaty hands. Might need to re-assess some of the emotional signs I’ve put in there. But I may never be satisfied with my work. That’s just me. It’s ready to query, and that’s what’s important at the moment.

Finishing a novel, feeling that thrill of accomplishment, that pride and joy at bringing alive a story that exists only in your head, is an exhilarating moment. The only thing I’ve experienced that’s more moving is the birth of a child. That’s a tear-in-the-eye-lump-in-the-throat-laughing-and-crying-at-the-same-time moment. A novel’s birth is a little more subtle, muted.

It’s a solitary endeavor that few people can understand. You’ve worked. You’ve sacrificed. And it’s been alone. Yes, the support of your family has been a constant, and everyone asks how the novel’s coming, but it’s still mine and mine alone. No matter how many beta comments I’ve taken, discussions I’ve had with friends about how to get an agent or advice from Hubby on how I should resolve an issue, the final product still rests on my shoulders. Every decision that was made, was made by me alone.

And it’s scary. Terrifying. When I query that agent, they aren’t going to know how many beta readers have contributed to ironing out the plot, how many times Hubby has read and found typos, how many friends have read (or maybe never finished 🙂 ) the novel and given their feedback. It’s all on me. Their comments, if I’m lucky enough to receive them, will instruct me how to write better. Their rejections will tell me that it isn’t for them.

But their requests for fulls are mine too. Should I ever be published (I will be published! I will be published!) all my contributors will get a nod in the acknowledgments section, but it’s still my name on the cover. And that, my friends, is the final reward: a name in bold letters that most readers ignore and a chance to share that story that lived and breathed inside you with the world. That chance is all I ask for.